Nobody

 Hi me,

i remember on one day

one of my teacher of three years,

asked whether i am a student on the class all those years!

he couldn't believe himself 

that one of 'me' was his student all those years.

yes, that's me.

a person who unknowingly good at art of hiding,

a person unwillingly invisible,

a person who don't have anything particular to noticed by everyone.

neither beautiful nor ugly,

neither too smart nor too dump,

neither talkative nor completely quiet,

just average in everything.

yes i do exist!

while watching cartoons or films;

i have always thought that,

no artist will never do a portrait of me,

no screen writer write about a character just like me.

even scrolling through social media

sometimes i judged others and say to myself

nothing special or a side kick, just like myself.

i said to my friend;

it is good to be unnoticed,

it is good to be a nobody,

it is good to be forgotten.

nobody have any expectation from me,

nobody will disappoint in my actions,

because first of all no one know me.

if my life happening in the movie

i would be just the random nameless person

when the director want to show a busy  platform.

now i am okay with the reaction,

"oh, you were in the class this whole time"

and to just smile away.

but in my deep down i am sad and doubting myself

why nobody is noticing me?

what i am lacking?

i am also special,

i am also the lead in a movie,

may be no one is good at art of noticing!

don't know,

may be something is not for everyone!

♡.




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