Past and Future

 Hi me,

here comes another year.

on the last days of 2024,

i put a lot thought about the last year.

it was interesting that,

how much different was the starting and ending of last year.

like two opposite poles.

i think that whether my 2024 jan self believe that,

all this happened to my 2024 dec self.

may be.

because in the corner of my heart i always fear that all bad things are going to happen.

it was like the proving of the law,

what you fear will happen eventually.

so here i am, trying to get out of my heartbreaking memories.

here i am, realizing that 

my gut feelings were always right.

so this year my resolution is

always trust your gut feeling

always listen to your inner voices.

cheers to the year of achievements.

♡.


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